Here it is another Sunday only this one happens to be Valentine's, and yet another special occasion that I am by myself, with all that is going on in my life I know that I should concentrate on the positive, and keep moving forward so with that let's take a look at a few things.
1. I still despise, and loathe both Kanye West
https://twitter.com/kanyewest & https://twitter.com/@justinbieber Justin Bieber, and those 2 things will never change for reasons that are well known to the public at large.
2. I'm alone again, as the song goes, https://youtu.be/5w3CaYwgkyY but that's nothing new. To all of those that read this, and that have someone to say "I love you" to, be thankful that you can say those words because for those like us today is just another reminder that no one cares about us, but that's alright because like I said after a while you get used to it. Am I being depressed or angry or hurt that no one cares? Not anymore, but I guess there is a hint of sadness in these words, nothing I can do about that now at the moment except to take in the rest of this day, and stay focused on things that are important, and that I am trying to achieve. I would like to have someone to say those 3 little magical words to I would like to enjoy the holidays again, and I would like to feel some happiness in my life, and a change in my heart, but for now that is not my reality, and I have to be realistic about all things because this isn't Disneyland this is real, and reality sometimes is not what we would like it to be so it is up to us to make changes that are necessary in order to get to where we want to be. Sometimes these things are difficult when you have no one to help or even worse yet when those that you thought were your friends, and family desert you for whatever reasons, and you are left to your own devices, those are the worst feelings of all, especially knowing that just a little help would go so far, and you would have a sense of faith about others, but the more that things go on the more I wonder if anybody really does care or am I truly alone? I believe at the moment that the latter is absolutely true. How do I know this? the facts speak for themselves, but I can't dwell on the negativity of my situation in actuality it is in these darkest of moments that we find out the most about ourselves. That's kind of a strange situation to be in to find more about your inner being, but the alternative is far more worse, and I have been on that end of the spectrum as well. To all those that celebrate this day with someone you love, or that loves you, I wish you happiness, and a good Sunday. To those that are like myself on this day, we must stay together in this common battle of loneliness, and persevere in these dark times, and realize that we are utterly alone, but we have ourselves, and knowing ones self can be truly illuminating, the situation we find ourselves in may not be the most pleasurable at the moment, but stay strong, and don't return to wandering through the forest or in the dark, and remember that we will walk in the sunlight one day soon, and also don't forget about those footprints in the sand. I have walked where you stand, and I have walked along that beach in the sand, but instead of letting you take that walk by yourself I will walk it with you so that you know that you are not alone, and we will take this journey together. The evils, and monsters of the world cannot be defeated by ones self nor can the demons that dwell within us. Writing for me is therapeutic,and an outlet to express myself, and my feelings for all things that ale me, but I know that these words could be misconstrued as self pity, but I can assure you that they are not, rather they are words of honesty that are derived from my emotional being at the moment, and the reality of my situation. Sorry this is so long, and I know that most will not read this to the end, but my hope is that these words, and this opening up of my current reality helps someone then this writing has not been for not,and it has been worth it to sum up some feelings on a day such as this. I will try to write more as I find the time, and try to relate to others who may be feeling the way that I do so that they know that they are not alone, and there are others who have walked, and continue to walk this road that they find themselves on. Stay strong brothers,and sisters. God bless, and happy Sunday. Thank you!
